tea's ready! --H

were long, long days. very exhausting being so full of emotion all the time. but yesterday's check-in was reallly meaningful for me. h said some good stuff. she said thousands of people would kill to have my body. she said my eyes and hair are amazing, and that i'm really lucky how the weight distributed. i really tried to internalize all the good stuff she said about me. we also talked about how i just keep my ED in my "back pocket" for security and stuff. i just feel like she is so, so incredible. cause she knows exactly what to say to me all the time.
continuing throughout the day, yesterday's process group was really intense. d-ise read her first share. waaaaaaaaay intense. and then a new person had a panic attack. it was soooooooooo scary. i was really, really frightened. h talked to me before lunch and we played bumper cars w/ the green chairs hahaha. after lunch i sang some awesoooooooooome songs and everyone was like omgosh like you are such a good singer!!!! i was like, thanks. :) comm meeting was about relationships outside the program and of course h was like, diana what do you have to say about this i was just wondering how you were feeling bla bla bla? but i didn't say anything and we also talked about people being more specific on some things in check-in...
skills group was about self-soothing activities with the five senses. go big papa haha.

lol, one really funny thing that happened during AM snack was JamieL was eating diced pears and then was drinking the juice and was like, this is delicious! and all of a sudden started choking HAHAHA. not that it's a laughing matter, but really even she was laughing about it. she is SO FUNNY.

uuuuuuuuugh but today sucked. really intense day for me just sharing things that happened in the past. H pulled me out of nutrition and we had kinda a heart to heart. talked to her after program too.

then therapy with JH. then taught Ava piano. long day.

as well as not getting home til ten last night after an amazing institute class.
tomorrow= Support Group! Going out w/ amy and wizzy beforehand!