Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Shocked. Amazed. Never, ever, in my wildest dreams...

did I think that I would be able to handle a day at home.

So today was like my first real try-out day off of PHP. I was notified on Tuesday afternoon of this. Which was not ideal. I was really sad, scared, etc....H and I talked for a little while about it though that afternoon. And just things in general. Which really, really helped.

Anyway, then I left the hospital and walked around downtown Berkeley for a little while, through a farmer's market, etc...read Siddhartha in a local Starbucks and got steamed milk with a shot of vanilla in it, which was really good! Then I went to institute!! It was really, really great! The people there were awesome and so so friendly. I'm so glad I went!

So then today. Woke up. Cleaned up the kitchen. Showered/dressed. Played piano for a long long time. Lunched. Read. Watched Bye Bye Birdie :-D and fell asleep. Went for a walk in the afternoon. Taught piano. Dinnered. Went to Michael's to pick up art stuff for my lesson tomorrow. Came back, made a picture and a poem that is awesome.

Good stuff man, good stuff.

One big thing I've been meaning to write that I have learned while in PHP (from H): "The only reason I've been able to stay in recovery is change. I continually challenge myself with new things; by doing this, I reaffirm my abilities."

This week in commitment group on Monday, one of my goals was to do something new every day. Which I have been. Monday I went to the library to check out Siddhartha/wrote a paragraph about why staying home is so hard....Tuesday went to Institute...Today well everything was amazing...Tomorrow art lesson....


This is a very, very important lesson.

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