It's SO late!

It is really late. Unfortunately I just have so much going on in my ol' cranial skull. So I want to make this to the point.
Today, B-rad met J. They spoke for 10 minutes-ish. Then he went to math. J and I talked. Lots of things hit me today. One thing, for example, is that I say, "Oh, I want to be doing a lot better by the time I get married." But also there are many, many things to take into account that undoubtedly will deter that. Comparing myself to other brides is definitely a factor; fitting into that wonderful size 2 wedding dress; and of course, the "wedding night" and you-- er, I,-- want to look super hot. MOTHER OF PEARL WHAT IS A GIRL TO DO.
More importantly, though, is something J said about how it's like, a "functional alcoholic" would be all like telling their fiance, "Oh, I'm recovering and I go to meetings and I'm doing a lot better," but that night they get wasted and nothing is truly different. Then she had to be all like philosophical and hit me to the core and be like, "If you had to pick between B-rad and your e.d. which would you choose?" And I was all like, bla bla bla I don't want to get faaaaaaaaaaat life sucks except I love B-rad so yeah. So now I have a really important goal for this week that I am going to take really seriously.

Oh, ok, so then tonight B-rad was amazing AS ALWAYS and after institute he helped me with my German homework which I didn't think I was even going to need help on but actually I needed help on every single sentence, ha! and he was so nice about it like telling me I was doing really good on it, anyway I digress because really what was amazing was that after we read another chapter of Chronicles of Narnia, he was all like, "Meeting J with you was the highlight of my day! She is so great, I want to help you so much, I wanted to stay with you guys today!" Like, is there anyone more perfect out there? Honestly?

In conclusion: tomorrow=group. No further commentary needed. :-/ Wish me luck?