saturday is a special day!

^too bad for all the people that don't understand that reference, huh?

anyway, today wasin fact special because it was fun! at ten i taught ava piano, then right afterwards alisa and i went for a bike ride! i had asked her last weekend about riding and so she took me out. i definitely want to get a bike now. i got to ride her mom's, which cost like two grand. sooooo nice.

then i went to a guitar lesson which was awesome. :)

then i came home and have been chilling ever since. nice. missionaries came over for dinner. it was alright.

On Thursday I got to see H!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!! Naomi and I went to Berkeley for the Educational Group and got to see H. omgooooooooooooosh so awesome. except for the whole her telling me i look like shit part. yeahhhh that was not so great. it was right after alan was about to walk out and then he was liiiike, "i'm concerned. that's all i'm gonna say." bla bla bla. then she was like, "how do you like that feedback? i dunno if that was the reaction you were hoping for...but do you want me to be honest with you? you look like shit."

man that sucks. but she said she would come to the support group in two weeks if i follow my mealplan. so that's some major mucho motivation yo. i definitely want to see her there! cause i miss her times a million!

today they told me i could sleep in!

but now i'm awake (5:33 a.m...went to be at midnight:thirty) and can't sleep...i have SO much on my mind, so i figured it'd be good to get it out in this bloggio.
the thing on my mind in the present moment is that, get this, this week....i am spending each night in a different part of the bay area!! kinda cool, huh!? here's a breakdown:
sunday night: i spent mostly at home, in benicia (northeast bay)
monday night: belmont (the peninsula)
tuesday night: san francisco (the city duh) with amytron!!
wednesday night: lafayette for the support group. it was awesome last night...maybe that's why i have so much on my mind...
thursday night (tonight): palo alto for tutoring in O Chem at Stanford...my tutor is SO smart, he is getting his PhD in O Chem, wow...(probably why i pay him so much, too)
friday night: san jose (south bay) to hang out with LAUREN! YAY!! i haven't seen her for awhile so i'm reallllllllllllly excited. the reason i'm staying down here is cause saturday i have to do a cpr/first aid certification class in burlingame for my job, so i didn't want to drive all the way back home/come back.
saturday: dinner in the east bay in berkeley probably although possibly oakland with TRICIA!!!!!!!!!! yay who i am also VERY excited to see yay yay yay!!! but the reason i'm not going home right after the cpr class is because i apparently am picking up my friend naomi's friend from the airport that night lol...i know weird. but yes, so i am excited. good week, huh!?!

next weekend (after this) guitar lesson, riding with alisa, going to monterey with amytron!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, going to berkeley on thursday, tutoring on wednesday....i'll find even more exciting ways to split the other night i'm sure....

anyway. what have i been up to, other than all this fun exciting madness? the past couple weeks have been kinda similar actually. last week, dinner with amy on tuesday, stanford wednesday, berkeley thursday. home friday :D

it has been really really great having a job and income and stuff. totally. i mean, i love my job most days. like yesterday and tuesday it was great!!! the time with sanaa always goes by really really quickly. yesterday we went to this place called Coyote Point in San Mateo. Wow, it was GORGEOUS. Also it was a completely perfect day to go...a little overcast...I video'ed Sanaa it was funny. Mmmm just thinking about it, it was SO nice. So we spent awhile there and then came home, drank milk, chatted, took a shower (well she did hahah) and then cleaned up and then the day was done! Thursdays always go really quickly, too, because she has gymnastics at 3 and we go to the library beforehand, so that pretty much knocks out an entire day of having to come up with anything. And Friday she has a playdate, so there ya go. But even on days when she is tired and we just come home, somehow it always just goes fast. Usually we are always just preoccupied some way or another. I think this is reason for me to NOT get a TV in my house when I'm older...hmmmm....

I'm trying to think of our other adventures. Mostly library visits, etc....I definitely am going to start taking more pictures and probably go a scrapbook...This summer is going to be so fun with her; yesterday her mom, R, and I were talking and they are members to the Discovery museum in S.F. and she said we could go on lots of zoo trips and things, so yes! It will be great!

What else have I been meaning to blog about. Hmmmmm....I miss H. :( It's pretty intense nowadays.

do you know what helped me today? looking in the mirror, and instead of seeing something i wanted to criticize, i thought..."i am seeing someone who H loves. and who amytron loves! and who jude loves!"

i really do have amazing people in my life.
talked to a friend late last night. she had some very very good points. but one was, "diana, you don't know how much you mean to people." i cried :( that meant a lot to me.
she stayed on the phone with me for a long time. and read me a story! and then i fell asleep.

it's like, during the day trying to push all that icky away but then when someone cares and asks super caringly directly how things are going i couldn't help but break down and cry.

now that i am working and will have money i need ideas for things to buy. whatchya got?

priceless

so this afternoon Sanaa (pronounced Senna) and I were doing art. She made a birthday card for her mom (even though Rhidika's birthday is in Nov, haha) and I made a "I miss you" card for H. And Sanaa was like, "what's that?" so i told her and she was like, who's that, bla bla bla...i was like "someone that i don't get to see hardly at all anymore," etc etc...anyway, and then i drew a sad face on mine. and she was SO cute, she was like, "But I'm here with you."

kids. amazing. :)

spent the morning learning how to make two indian dishes, rice pilaf and moongdal, like a lentil soup. they were good, we had them for dinner.
gotta sleep, gotta wake up early... :(

last week/today

Man, I wish I had posted something more recently in order to give full justice to just how amazing last week was. Because let me tell you, the week (note: not weekEND) was really great. Last Monday I came down here, to the peninsula, and interviewed for a nanny job. I had actually gotten a call just the day before--Sunday...or was it Saturday? Actually I guess it might have been Friday...at any rate, after the call I had to call Amytron to get support around it...but that's a completely different story and I'm getting off-track altogether...ANYWAY, back to last week, Monday's in-person interview went really well. Tuesday I think the only thing going on was my little brother's baseball game...which they lost :( but it was still fun to go to. Then Wednesday was SOOOOOO great! Went to therapy (ok, not the great part...only if H was my T :( ) and then drove over to Lafeyette and just hung out and read the really good book I'm still reading and then got to see Tricia!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Because it was a support group in Lafeyette. And yeah so that was sooooo good. And then on Thursday that was an even BETTER day!!!!!!!! Because I got to see H!!!!!!!!!!!! Aaaaand she is soooo funny cause I walked in w/ Tricia and of course she just acted like it had been just no time at all had passed since I had seen her (well, it had only been 8 days...) and she gets gets SOOO excited over the SMALLEST things, lol it's hilarious. And so she was really excited about the aforementioned tomato plant, Tobias. And we chatted about how things were going blah blah blah. And Alan walked past and then saw me in the php room and came in and was so excited to see me and he wanted to know how everything was going :) Then he left, and I was talking to H about what they had done for art therapy. Apparently they had been instructed to choose someone they admired and blah blah blah i'm not sure the exact details because as soon as she told me that all I could think was trying to tell her that I would have picked her, which I did tell her and she gave me a hug. a looooong one. cause she is understanding like that and she said i was a good hugger! and she told me to "hang in there," like she always has been lately, and that she would bring me a tomato from tobias :)
sooo then tricia and i finally headed down to the basement and leslie! yay! gave a thing on assertiveness. i love leslie! and it was soooo good. seriously. you shoulda, er, COULDA, been there. OH I left out the good part!!! I actually went into Berkeley around twelve-ish/one-ish and it was PERFECT weather and i read and sat in the grass and drank COLD chocolate milk and a pear and it was soooo lovely...and amytron was with me in spirit :)....and then went for a hike up to tilden park and then came back and THEN finally met tricia to go talk to H....anyway, so after support group tricia and i walked to telegraph and went to the same cafe that amytron and i had been to before. maaaaan good stuff. we talked for a long time and it was so lovely!!!!
anyway, so friday morning i left by 9:30 am to go do a trial babysit for this fam down here. went super well. coming home i got lost, but luckily i have a SF city savvy friend :) who helped direct me. i ended going over FIVE different bridges that day. luckily i only had to pay toll on two. ha.
friday night. no bueno. boys=no no no bueno. no no no.
---->saturday no bueno.
sunday=muy bueno. since my fam was out of town this weekend, i got to take up alllll my parent's responsibilities at church hahaha. i played piano for sacrament meeting, taught gospel doctrine, and played piano in relief society lolzzzzz. then cope's invited me over! then went to napa last night for z wag's mission farewell. good day. ANYWAY and then i got home last night from napa and this fam had left me a voicemail being like, just come start today...
and i was waaaaay freaked out but SHOUT OUT TO AMYTRON for helping me through it. seriously what would i do without her.
anyway today was sooooo good starting a new job. hopefully things will continue going well. i'll give you more of the 411 about today and this new fam soon, but i gotsa go to bed. gotta wake up at 6:30 :(
<3 XOXOXOXO